While was still here in Kirksville, I was able to stay sane. I spent time trying to find a new job, but probably not nearly as much as I should have (I had an interview and a handful of resumes out). This week will be her last trip back to Kirksville (for probably a long time), to take back the last of her possessions and clean her old rental place. I spent a large amount of time trying to help her...basically just keeping her company, at the very least, as she tried to finish up school. And then she almost blew up with her appendix, so I was kinda distracted taking her to the hospital, lol. And NO, Michelle, I'm not blaming you. My own ineptness is to blame for my lack of searching for a new job harder.

But now that she will be back home in the St. Louis area, this means a couple things:

1. I have more time to myself--probably far more than I want. I will go craaaaaaazy. Even if I do have my wonderful kitty for company. Arthur is also here to finish school soon, but he is severely allergic to cats, and can only keep me company every once in awhile.
2. I will have that time to hopefully search and apply for a new job or get into a educational project...whether it is teaching English in Korea or trying to get into Grad school.

To be honest, I just really want to find a job. This may be a pipe-dream though; with no job experience relevant to what I want to do, it'll probably be impossible. I think I'll have a lot of work to do for free to get my name out there.

I just don't want to do anything military related. Just a personal preference. But if I get desperate, I may not have a choice.

I want to leave Kirksville. I want to have a real job, one relevant to the major I graduated college with, and not to stay at Walmart forever. If it was in Columbia it would be great. Even if I was in a small place with a real job, that would be great. I want a better job, and I especially want to meet new people. I don't hate anyone here, but I need to meet new people I think. I've been in this town long enough.

I'd say my top feelings right now...not incredibly depressed or anything, but lonely and kinda desperate.

I'll keep searching those ads! I know success will not be instantaneous!